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All I can say right now is that wasn't my intention, honey. And if you thought I would never figure it out, then you were wrong, because I know how you think, and therefore can think just like you, and therefore can figure out how you felt. Well, I can just say that you misunderstood me. I guess it's contagious.

It really hurts to find out that people slip around behind your back and accidentally let casual comments you say slip out. It really hurts that the trust I have with many people is conditional and weak. But oh well, such is life. I guess all I can say is that I wish you had better faith in me. I wish you would come to me if you have a problem, instead of just giving up on me or wishing that I would come to you. But alas, I have yet to be confronted to my face. If you have an issue, speak up, or please, forever hold your peace.

I know that the person I'm speaking about won't ever read this (and if she does, here is what I have to say: why not be straight with me? Please know that I support your endevours. Please also know that I'm trying to HELP YOU, not HURT you.) I guess I'm just stinging right now, because when I look back, I realize that there were probably a lot of people involved in this situation who weren't straight with me about their feelings. In return, this means that I can never be straight with them about how I felt.

But enough drama. Let's go on to the happier things. Brittany and Elissa are home, and I am so, so happy. Caitlyn is ready to pop any day now. Today was her due date, but I have yet to hear anything from anyone about whether Hailey is now among us or not. All my Christmas presents (except the two that I haven't bought yet!) are finally wrapped, and the tree is decorated all nice and lovely. The Christmas baking was completed yesterday (after a long day...220 perogies later...) and the cleaning of the house is almost done as well. Now, to only wait 4 days until all the relatives come. I hope this is the greatest Christmas ever. I know that sounds cliche, but really, everything seems so good right now (except for the crappy, secretive drama, but even that can go away if no one thinks about it at all.) Let's just hope that the good tidings of comfort and joy will stick around, and that there will be peace on earth, good will toward men. And women. And children too.
  • I really enjoyed this post, it made me reconsider all my life goals. I feel so much better now.
    Thank you Lexi Poop
  • "It really hurts to find out that people slip around behind your back and accidentally let casual comments you say slip out."

    I sure hope this isn't directed towards me. I must warn you that I have told a few people that you told me that i am going to hell.
    • thats cause you are a heathen.
    • No, no, it's not towards you.

      Although for the record, you ASKED me if you were going to hell, and I said I didn't know for sure. Then you said what do you think, and I said, "Yeah, maybe." But I didn't come up and just say, "Dan Raber, you bad boy, you're going to hell." And then I started to explain my unique views of hell, but then Danchura started talking about hybridization.

      Just so everyone doesn't think I'm a judgemental legalist...
      • hahaha I know you didn't say it straight out and I of course don't mind that you think I'm going to hell. you're probably right anyways.
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